hmmm topics today.. time sure passes by even b4 we notice... been a week since i last post anything here...
kk.. let's refresh my memories then...
1st of april (tue).. simply just a normal working day... played soccer in the evening... then had a drink and headed back home had a shower..talked to dear b4 watching soccer.... man u trashed roma 2-0... sad... nv like man u...bacelona won 1-0.. and i got owned by not sleeping...
2nd april (wed) ... totally exhausted from soccer... daze at work but still managed to finish what's given to me...went home at 6.30pm.. slack and do my own stuffs b4 sleeping...
3rd april (thurs)... worked.. went home 6.30pm and meet andy they all go ktv at 9pm.. had a great time but spent alot too... drink no drive.. ^_^ reached home at 3am.
4th april (Fri)... work.. fetched pj at 6pm and went meet up with mum and dad for my lunar bday dinner... bike batt give way... had a hard time pushing the bike to start it.. pissed off... spent $95 to change a new batt... luckily food was nice.. had a nice dinner with them b4 sending pj home while mum dad went china town.... love dear dear alot..tolerating my temper... *muak*
5th april (sat) after work suppose to visit Jy at hopital.. but was tired so changed my mind... supposed to meet up with dear but had a quarrel... ended up i fell asleep... when woke up things got woke.. met YuJ they all around 10+pm for no. ball.. lost... think i deserved it.... (i am sorry dear jun)
6th April (sun)... cousin' wedding... supposed to go work but i choosed to slack at home... finally sort things out with dear dear... (so gald ^_^) . yongxian came fetch mum dad and me at 5pm..on the way picked up pj from her house to marriot hotel..where the dinner will be host... just in time(6pm) for the ROM session but due over crowded inside.. pj,yongxian and me stayed outside.. and i got myself lectured by dad for doing that... hai~ went for the cocktail.. until around 8pm then manage to go into the ball room... leg aching lor.. dinner was alright... and my cousin really looks beautiful... dinner started at 8.30pm.. but to my suprise 10.30pm ended le... on the way send pj back.. she was so tired and lied on my shoulder.. always like the look of her sleeping.. simply so sweet and adorable... asked yong xian dropped me off at holland V as meeting up ww they for a short while.. rather short but chat out heart out... lou sent us to wz's place where later i rode ww's bike back to my place b4 ww went home... and oh ya.. special thanks to yong xian for helping me to get the ferrari cars... now left 1 more to compete my collection.. thanks to lou for exchanging too. ^_^
7th Apr (mon)... monday blue...somehow managed to woke up at 6.15am and left home 6.45am to work... finished my stuff for the day and watched some downloaded show i put in my harddisk... went home at 6.30pm had my dinner and did my stuff b4 sleeping....
8th Apr (Tue)... work..slack..watch show as usual... rained the whole afternoon... wore raincoat when i went home... meet dear dear around 6.30pm instead of 6pm due to the rain... luckily 1 of her nice work mate sent her to the nearest mrt station... had dinner at home..ok alright.. after dinner update each other our days b4 watching channel 8 "Qiang Tang Xin Dong" liked the show alot... always prefer happy ending... then watched misubitshi challenge.. not as nice as last week... dear dear was so tired that she fell asleep while watching... let her sleep until 10.30pm then sent her home... ww asked to meet up... but Jun said she wanted supper 1st ..so went jurong west prata with her..had maggi goreng and egg prata... sent her home after supper and went nandai meet up with ww they all..
And guess what.. they met at S11 lo.. miscommunication.. no choice had to from nan dai go over to taman jurong.. on the way at this junction.. i was on right of way going straight when this lancer from the opp direction made a sudden right turn right b4 me... jammed brake all the way and the taxi behind me honked him... luckily managed to avoid..if not sure jia lat.. finally made up with wz they all and called pj to update her too... sat there till around 1am b4 going home bath and get ready for soccer again... Hai.. arsenal got knocked out by liverpool... they can blame no 1.. on the bright side.. CHELSEA WON 2-0.. i believe if they continue play like they did.. champion will definely be them.. GO Chelsea go!!!!
9th april(Wed).... typing this entry this very moment.. slacked the whole day cos finished my stuff b4 lunch... was tired due to soccer.... glad dear dear make it tru her observation.. YEA!!!!!
watched some show in the office and using internet..even at this moment...lolx.. going to stayed till quite late i guess.. earning ot.. nv ot much recently... slacker me... Tonight will be another night of soccer.... althought quite impossible,,, but hope roma can fight back and knock MAN U out.. lolx.... ok.. will stop here now.. continue to surf net... =P
7.27pm
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Monday, March 31, 2008
31st march 2008 Mon blue
31st march 2008 Mon blue
Dad woke me up this morning again... guess this is the normal routine to check on me le... hahaha… make it in time to work as usual. Had a slack morning don’t feel like doing anything. Ate sandwiches in the office for my breakfast and went toilet a few times… -.-
Watched some shows… talk cock with the pple in my office… sometimes really wondering whether am I really working or not… luckily I had a nice boss and department head…
Lunch time went out with yong to nan dai central da bao kfc.. nice but fattening.. and ended up got scolded by Jun over the phone when I told her… ( wo zhi cuo le).. after lunch did my stuff and showed to boss…together with my leave form under it…lolx… His eye damn sharp lo… 1 grance only saw it le… But like I said… he is a very nice guy… so approved my leave for wed afternoon as long as I get things done… ^_^
Actually nothing much now… updating blog in the office and going to visit JY later in the hospital… should be leaving office at 9pm… watching 1 more “yuan lai wo bu shuai” esp ba… LOLX…
7.35pm
Dad woke me up this morning again... guess this is the normal routine to check on me le... hahaha… make it in time to work as usual. Had a slack morning don’t feel like doing anything. Ate sandwiches in the office for my breakfast and went toilet a few times… -.-
Watched some shows… talk cock with the pple in my office… sometimes really wondering whether am I really working or not… luckily I had a nice boss and department head…
Lunch time went out with yong to nan dai central da bao kfc.. nice but fattening.. and ended up got scolded by Jun over the phone when I told her… ( wo zhi cuo le).. after lunch did my stuff and showed to boss…together with my leave form under it…lolx… His eye damn sharp lo… 1 grance only saw it le… But like I said… he is a very nice guy… so approved my leave for wed afternoon as long as I get things done… ^_^
Actually nothing much now… updating blog in the office and going to visit JY later in the hospital… should be leaving office at 9pm… watching 1 more “yuan lai wo bu shuai” esp ba… LOLX…
7.35pm
30th march 2008 my actual bday
30th march 2008 my actual bday
Woke up at 6+am today… gone to work as usual as need to settle some stuff in office. But after reaching... apparently nothing much for me to do… So left around 12noon to my 2nd aunt house as they cooked lunch... (Some sorts of tradition b4 someone get marry).
Talked to dear on the phone awhile updating her on what happened throughout the day.
Around 2+pm went home to rest before meeting ww they all for my bday dinner.
Left the house round 6.25pm when we were supposed to meet at 6.30pm… (They sure late 1) reached bugis around 6.50pm yet some of them haven reach... met them up and they passed me the gift which was a t shirt from addidas... the design not bad la… ^_^ so after that went for zi cha dinner...
The usual place we went renovated... didn’t really like it as I prefer eating in round table instead... So went to the restaurant which I went with the pri pple the time... Ordered 6 dishes… asked the waitress to serve awhile later as we were waiting for ww whom had overslept as he woke up to work 4am this morning... But after around 10min of waiting… all of us got hungry and decided to not to wait for him le... lolx … luckily when the food was served he arrived...
Once ww sit down and touches the chopsticks... we started to chiong the food… yummy and nice… we have no table manners 1...just poke here and there...that’s our tradition... If u are slow. Then u will be left with no food... Within 20min… we finished up our dinner. Scary…lolx. Seat there to rest awhile and had a few games of “Zhong Ji Mi Ma” loser had to eat up 2 spoonful of the left over rice… quite fun...
After that… we shifted location to cine‘s E2Max for LAN game.. Really had a great time as quite awhile since we last played together… only until 12+pm then we went home separately…
Received some sms from friends wishing me happy bday... was grateful... But the person that touches me the most… is still my dear dear Jun... and oh.. oh ya... older by 1 year once again... anyone has the time machine?
Woke up at 6+am today… gone to work as usual as need to settle some stuff in office. But after reaching... apparently nothing much for me to do… So left around 12noon to my 2nd aunt house as they cooked lunch... (Some sorts of tradition b4 someone get marry).
Talked to dear on the phone awhile updating her on what happened throughout the day.
Around 2+pm went home to rest before meeting ww they all for my bday dinner.
Left the house round 6.25pm when we were supposed to meet at 6.30pm… (They sure late 1) reached bugis around 6.50pm yet some of them haven reach... met them up and they passed me the gift which was a t shirt from addidas... the design not bad la… ^_^ so after that went for zi cha dinner...
The usual place we went renovated... didn’t really like it as I prefer eating in round table instead... So went to the restaurant which I went with the pri pple the time... Ordered 6 dishes… asked the waitress to serve awhile later as we were waiting for ww whom had overslept as he woke up to work 4am this morning... But after around 10min of waiting… all of us got hungry and decided to not to wait for him le... lolx … luckily when the food was served he arrived...
Once ww sit down and touches the chopsticks... we started to chiong the food… yummy and nice… we have no table manners 1...just poke here and there...that’s our tradition... If u are slow. Then u will be left with no food... Within 20min… we finished up our dinner. Scary…lolx. Seat there to rest awhile and had a few games of “Zhong Ji Mi Ma” loser had to eat up 2 spoonful of the left over rice… quite fun...
After that… we shifted location to cine‘s E2Max for LAN game.. Really had a great time as quite awhile since we last played together… only until 12+pm then we went home separately…
Received some sms from friends wishing me happy bday... was grateful... But the person that touches me the most… is still my dear dear Jun... and oh.. oh ya... older by 1 year once again... anyone has the time machine?
Sunday, March 30, 2008
29th march 2008 Pre bday celebration with jun
29th march 2008
Been a long long time since I updated my blog. Been busy plus lazy...hahaha.
A lot of things happened since 2007 till now... like sis went oversea studies...I got injured... dad got injured... friends got injured... … all the unfortunate incidents taking place... ok la... not really that bad actually... just being a bit kua zahng.. Now in the office slacking so make use of the chance to update some stuff...
29th march 2008 [Pre bday celebration with my dearest Jun]
As usual. Need dad to wake me up at 6.45am to wash up and go work... sometimes really wondering how life will be for me without him... (Shake head...) reached office at 7.25am. Manage to slack in the office till 11.30am as it’s sat. Packed up and went grandma’s house.
Reaches grandma’s place around 12noon. Had a chat with her and also received a ang bao from her for studies... always enjoy having grandma to myself as I can almost tell her anything... and knowing her health is good always make me feel comfort.. (Till now I still miss grandpa a lot at times)
Left grandma’s house at 1pm to fetch dear dear from her place... in the lift opened the ang bao and realized she gave me a lot $$ (won’t disclose the amount). Think I will give back some to her on the next visit.
Picked dear dear at 1.15pm... She looks gorgeous… always think she looks good in blue and white… ^_^
Went NUH to pass J.Y the DVDs I promised him... hope he recover soon…I never like visiting friends in hospital... make me feel uneasy... After visiting leaving NUH... we went back to dear’s place to get some stuff as she forgotten to take before heading to ART HOUSE for lunch. She really sweet I must said... she planned the day programes with some choices for me to choose from it like playing a board game...
Ate Vietnamese food there... the quality of the food is ok only but the service was splendid. After lunch, headed back to my house for our next program (chill??)
Reached back at my place around 4.45pm... Counted the coins meow’s stomach acuminated and whoa... it’s really quite a sum in that fat cat... then we slacked awhile before leaving my house at 6.30pm.. (Suppose to leave at 6.20pm… got nagged for dragging the time).
Luckily we reached back marina area on time... if not I will be in deep shit... dear dear surprised me by buying the Singapore flyer tickets. Really sweet of her… went and enjoyed the overall view of Singapore… took quite some photos up there too.
After alighted from the flyer… was thinking of taking a walk around the place but Jun said she had booked the movie tickets at Leisure Park (kallang). So we went down to collect our tickets before heading for a dinner at Frosti. Had carbonara, some snails and garlic bread... The meal ok only but the bread was yummy… ^_^ Went for the movie at 9.05pm… The movie sucks... lame and funny never mind... it’s not even funny… but never mind… at least dear was there.. =) went play some hoop games after the movies and head for cheesecake café at east coast rd... My favorite!!
Had an American cheese cake and a chocolate cheese cake while dear dear had a chocolate mousse cake it thinks. Had a wonderful time there… the café knowing it’s my bday gave use extra ice cream too… very sweet of them... stayed there till after 12mn.. Dear dear sang a bday song for me I made my wishes... hope all my wishes come true...
Left the café around 12+mn heading for home... on the way back along ecp... saw a wrecked convertible car [SGT plate some more]... over turned... stopped our bike and went over see any help need... the driver and the passenger managed to climb out of the car.. The passengers escaped with some scratches but the driver palm’s skin was badly torn... most of bones of his fingers can be seem…ask jun not to look but she still did... offered some water for him to rinse his palm... and advice him not to use tissue.. As the crowd getting bigger... Jun and I decided to leave...at the same time. The police arrived...
Sent dear dear home before head for home… quite tired…but enjoyed my day out with her… managed to give her a call before I knock out.. preparing myself for another working day on sun.. -.-
30th march 2008 11am. Happy Bday to me
Been a long long time since I updated my blog. Been busy plus lazy...hahaha.
A lot of things happened since 2007 till now... like sis went oversea studies...I got injured... dad got injured... friends got injured... … all the unfortunate incidents taking place... ok la... not really that bad actually... just being a bit kua zahng.. Now in the office slacking so make use of the chance to update some stuff...
29th march 2008 [Pre bday celebration with my dearest Jun]
As usual. Need dad to wake me up at 6.45am to wash up and go work... sometimes really wondering how life will be for me without him... (Shake head...) reached office at 7.25am. Manage to slack in the office till 11.30am as it’s sat. Packed up and went grandma’s house.
Reaches grandma’s place around 12noon. Had a chat with her and also received a ang bao from her for studies... always enjoy having grandma to myself as I can almost tell her anything... and knowing her health is good always make me feel comfort.. (Till now I still miss grandpa a lot at times)
Left grandma’s house at 1pm to fetch dear dear from her place... in the lift opened the ang bao and realized she gave me a lot $$ (won’t disclose the amount). Think I will give back some to her on the next visit.
Picked dear dear at 1.15pm... She looks gorgeous… always think she looks good in blue and white… ^_^
Went NUH to pass J.Y the DVDs I promised him... hope he recover soon…I never like visiting friends in hospital... make me feel uneasy... After visiting leaving NUH... we went back to dear’s place to get some stuff as she forgotten to take before heading to ART HOUSE for lunch. She really sweet I must said... she planned the day programes with some choices for me to choose from it like playing a board game...
Ate Vietnamese food there... the quality of the food is ok only but the service was splendid. After lunch, headed back to my house for our next program (chill??)
Reached back at my place around 4.45pm... Counted the coins meow’s stomach acuminated and whoa... it’s really quite a sum in that fat cat... then we slacked awhile before leaving my house at 6.30pm.. (Suppose to leave at 6.20pm… got nagged for dragging the time).
Luckily we reached back marina area on time... if not I will be in deep shit... dear dear surprised me by buying the Singapore flyer tickets. Really sweet of her… went and enjoyed the overall view of Singapore… took quite some photos up there too.
After alighted from the flyer… was thinking of taking a walk around the place but Jun said she had booked the movie tickets at Leisure Park (kallang). So we went down to collect our tickets before heading for a dinner at Frosti. Had carbonara, some snails and garlic bread... The meal ok only but the bread was yummy… ^_^ Went for the movie at 9.05pm… The movie sucks... lame and funny never mind... it’s not even funny… but never mind… at least dear was there.. =) went play some hoop games after the movies and head for cheesecake café at east coast rd... My favorite!!
Had an American cheese cake and a chocolate cheese cake while dear dear had a chocolate mousse cake it thinks. Had a wonderful time there… the café knowing it’s my bday gave use extra ice cream too… very sweet of them... stayed there till after 12mn.. Dear dear sang a bday song for me I made my wishes... hope all my wishes come true...
Left the café around 12+mn heading for home... on the way back along ecp... saw a wrecked convertible car [SGT plate some more]... over turned... stopped our bike and went over see any help need... the driver and the passenger managed to climb out of the car.. The passengers escaped with some scratches but the driver palm’s skin was badly torn... most of bones of his fingers can be seem…ask jun not to look but she still did... offered some water for him to rinse his palm... and advice him not to use tissue.. As the crowd getting bigger... Jun and I decided to leave...at the same time. The police arrived...
Sent dear dear home before head for home… quite tired…but enjoyed my day out with her… managed to give her a call before I knock out.. preparing myself for another working day on sun.. -.-
30th march 2008 11am. Happy Bday to me
Friday, June 22, 2007
Breaking Down
Have you ever encounter this..
no matter how hard you try.. life just isn't what it should be..
no matter how hard you try.. still get hurts..
no matter how hard you give.. in return just lies..
Really a joke..
a big big joke...
how are we going to believe in other when all we face in daily life are just lies.. hidden facts..
all i want now is to run away
hide in my room...
disappear from this world.. but i know i can't
No one will know..
You wouldn't know what it`s like..
to be me..
no matter how hard you try.. life just isn't what it should be..
no matter how hard you try.. still get hurts..
no matter how hard you give.. in return just lies..
Really a joke..
a big big joke...
how are we going to believe in other when all we face in daily life are just lies.. hidden facts..
all i want now is to run away
hide in my room...
disappear from this world.. but i know i can't
No one will know..
You wouldn't know what it`s like..
to be me..
Sunday, December 03, 2006
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试着灌醉...心却还是清醒...
试着忘记...却更记忆深刻...
许下了承诺...却也亲手一一打碎...
问你可曾...真的为我想过...
无法否认...错不完全是你...
我多多少少...也造成今天的局面...
遇上你...
究竟是上天的安排...
还是恶魔开的一个玩笑...
开心的记忆...
如今都变成伤心回忆...
很爱...所以心很痛...
真心付出..换来的却是灰色世界.....
身体上的伤口...会复原...
心灵上的伤口...却将会是永远...
爱你...并不后悔...
后悔的...是为何没能留住你...
试着忘记...却更记忆深刻...
许下了承诺...却也亲手一一打碎...
问你可曾...真的为我想过...
无法否认...错不完全是你...
我多多少少...也造成今天的局面...
遇上你...
究竟是上天的安排...
还是恶魔开的一个玩笑...
开心的记忆...
如今都变成伤心回忆...
很爱...所以心很痛...
真心付出..换来的却是灰色世界.....
身体上的伤口...会复原...
心灵上的伤口...却将会是永远...
爱你...并不后悔...
后悔的...是为何没能留住你...
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Life...
long long ago... a little boy looking forward to growing up... but when time goes.... he regretted... hoping time will stop and things can start afresh like in a video game... but of course... it will never work that way.. and what can the little boy do... what can he do... no one knows... even for he himself...
Friday, October 06, 2006
06-10-2006 Unforgettable Night
Been quite sometimes since lighted up a stick... what's actually got into me... Why do things have to turn out this way...when trust is being treated like a fool... betray surface.. Not very sure how should i discrib this feeling... definitely not anger.. but really feel the pain in the heart... always thought this kinda pain only happened in movie... never expected that the pain can really be felt...
How trust can be build when everything started with lies.. and no doubt is going to end due to lie.. I admit i was at fault too... but one things for sure... there`s no way i can ever accept lies.. in fact.. it`s amazing that this has go so far... I don't wanna go back to my old self.. years!!! i used years to be what i am today.. but i am detorying it !! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The pain is still there... no one will understand.. and i don't think i will ever share with anyone... Let dreams remain as dreams.. reality remain as they are.. stop dreaming and come back to reality... not all ugly ducklings can ever become a swam 1 day...
hopes fade..heart ach... I`m really Giving up... Because i am really tire of trying...
12.51am
How trust can be build when everything started with lies.. and no doubt is going to end due to lie.. I admit i was at fault too... but one things for sure... there`s no way i can ever accept lies.. in fact.. it`s amazing that this has go so far... I don't wanna go back to my old self.. years!!! i used years to be what i am today.. but i am detorying it !! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The pain is still there... no one will understand.. and i don't think i will ever share with anyone... Let dreams remain as dreams.. reality remain as they are.. stop dreaming and come back to reality... not all ugly ducklings can ever become a swam 1 day...
hopes fade..heart ach... I`m really Giving up... Because i am really tire of trying...
12.51am
Sunday, July 23, 2006
爷爷
爷爷..你走了...你真的走了..
爷爷..你走了...我们想念着你..
爷爷..你走了...你真的走了..
爷爷..虽走了...却在我们心中..
爷爷!你慢走...随海浪走吧..
回到中国...回到家乡...
爷爷!你慢走...放心的走吧..
我们会好好...替你照护奶奶..
南摩阿弥陀佛...南摩阿弥陀佛..
南摩阿弥陀佛...不必挂念我们..
爷爷..你走了...我们想念着你..
爷爷..你走了...你真的走了..
爷爷..虽走了...却在我们心中..
爷爷!你慢走...随海浪走吧..
回到中国...回到家乡...
爷爷!你慢走...放心的走吧..
我们会好好...替你照护奶奶..
南摩阿弥陀佛...南摩阿弥陀佛..
南摩阿弥陀佛...不必挂念我们..
Monday, May 29, 2006
29th may 2006 Midnight thought...12.30am
Amazing...been 2+ mths since i wrote something here...have to admit... beside cos com was down for quite a long time..also cos of laziness... -.- anyway..so how shall i start now...hmm..
Alot happened these 2mths..like cousin`s wedding..grandpa bday..sg government election(doesn't concern me though).. REgistering for sch..paying the fee.. ^^$^^ . . etc..But as normal.. i won't have that much time to talk for so long...still need to wake up at 6.30am go camp as usual and start my driving day.. so let focus on my topic for today ba.. Dear and me...
Went batam with jun..1st time experience..as we can't get desaru 1 day trip..didn't really enjoyed the trip..not cos that we actually quarrel there but cos of the raining day that spoil our sport activity plus the lousy food..will nv go there again..but have to say.. it`s still wasn't that bad..cos jun was there with me..with her around..everything seem to be better...
Quarrelled quite often recently due to indifferent in views.. also partly due to trust and promises..most of time except for a few... it`s juz some very tiny whinny matters but i always blow it by making a frust over it.. and of course.. her strong headed mind also played apart in it... althought we both knew it`s juz for each other good..but some how... hai~
Won't discuss much about this here as it`s some private stuff..
Soemtimes me myself also quite confuse.. like.. what i want from her.. is that really what i want.. will she understand my intention... Good intention wun pay without understanding as it will end up becoming restrictions.. but that`s nv what i want..
爱是包容...爱是宽恕...但放着不理会....真的行吗? 有话直说...说了又不肯接受..对吗?两个相爱的人..多了疑惑..问题就来了...有了妒嫉..多了争吵...少了宽容..失去信任...
Lies..really is 1 thing i cannot accept...but have to admit..cos of my temper..sometimes lies eventually surfaces...
I am confuse..not whether i want to continue on this relationshipor not ..cos i know very well i wan and jun will be the only 1 that i want.. confuse cos.. i dunno when have i become so short tempered.. is it cos love her too much...making me worry about everything she do and become angered when she refused to listen and follow especially when she know it`s for her own good...really dun hope she fall sick...cos her weak body can't take it..but guess no 1 will understand how i feel about this but myself... to her.. it`s juz another restriction..
Will change from now on.. juz have to lossen up i guess.. let her have a taste of the fall and learnt from her mistakes i guess..(juz hope it`s not fatal 1..)
Of course... she`s not the only baby in our relationship..i am 1 too.. always 撒娇to her..cos the warm and care she gave is not anyone els that can give to me...
To be the fact..i like doing nothing with jun..juz sit down on some rocks by the beach.. lying on each other shoulder..enjoying the breeze and have a chat..looking into her eye and see my reflection in it...to me.. i really no need anything much... juz her by my side will do...
really love jun alot..enjoy every moment with her around...she`s not juz only my gf..but also an adviser or rather my baby sitter...as alot know.. i always *young* at heart.. But too.. i also have to keep an eye on this kitten who always fall sick..hai~
It`s getting late..1.30am le.. another 5hrs to sleep..guess will be stopping here... hope my angel who`s sick agian will sleep well tonight... i nv say but i am always worry.. guilty night...try to be harsh but can't.. cos really love my angel very very much...
ps:Sorry...
Alot happened these 2mths..like cousin`s wedding..grandpa bday..sg government election(doesn't concern me though).. REgistering for sch..paying the fee.. ^^$^^ . . etc..But as normal.. i won't have that much time to talk for so long...still need to wake up at 6.30am go camp as usual and start my driving day.. so let focus on my topic for today ba.. Dear and me...
Went batam with jun..1st time experience..as we can't get desaru 1 day trip..didn't really enjoyed the trip..not cos that we actually quarrel there but cos of the raining day that spoil our sport activity plus the lousy food..will nv go there again..but have to say.. it`s still wasn't that bad..cos jun was there with me..with her around..everything seem to be better...
Quarrelled quite often recently due to indifferent in views.. also partly due to trust and promises..most of time except for a few... it`s juz some very tiny whinny matters but i always blow it by making a frust over it.. and of course.. her strong headed mind also played apart in it... althought we both knew it`s juz for each other good..but some how... hai~
Won't discuss much about this here as it`s some private stuff..
Soemtimes me myself also quite confuse.. like.. what i want from her.. is that really what i want.. will she understand my intention... Good intention wun pay without understanding as it will end up becoming restrictions.. but that`s nv what i want..
爱是包容...爱是宽恕...但放着不理会....真的行吗? 有话直说...说了又不肯接受..对吗?两个相爱的人..多了疑惑..问题就来了...有了妒嫉..多了争吵...少了宽容..失去信任...
Lies..really is 1 thing i cannot accept...but have to admit..cos of my temper..sometimes lies eventually surfaces...
I am confuse..not whether i want to continue on this relationshipor not ..cos i know very well i wan and jun will be the only 1 that i want.. confuse cos.. i dunno when have i become so short tempered.. is it cos love her too much...making me worry about everything she do and become angered when she refused to listen and follow especially when she know it`s for her own good...really dun hope she fall sick...cos her weak body can't take it..but guess no 1 will understand how i feel about this but myself... to her.. it`s juz another restriction..
Will change from now on.. juz have to lossen up i guess.. let her have a taste of the fall and learnt from her mistakes i guess..(juz hope it`s not fatal 1..)
Of course... she`s not the only baby in our relationship..i am 1 too.. always 撒娇to her..cos the warm and care she gave is not anyone els that can give to me...
To be the fact..i like doing nothing with jun..juz sit down on some rocks by the beach.. lying on each other shoulder..enjoying the breeze and have a chat..looking into her eye and see my reflection in it...to me.. i really no need anything much... juz her by my side will do...
really love jun alot..enjoy every moment with her around...she`s not juz only my gf..but also an adviser or rather my baby sitter...as alot know.. i always *young* at heart.. But too.. i also have to keep an eye on this kitten who always fall sick..hai~
It`s getting late..1.30am le.. another 5hrs to sleep..guess will be stopping here... hope my angel who`s sick agian will sleep well tonight... i nv say but i am always worry.. guilty night...try to be harsh but can't.. cos really love my angel very very much...
ps:Sorry...
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