Amazing...been 2+ mths since i wrote something here...have to admit... beside cos com was down for quite a long time..also cos of laziness... -.- anyway..so how shall i start now...hmm..
Alot happened these 2mths..like cousin`s wedding..grandpa bday..sg government election(doesn't concern me though).. REgistering for sch..paying the fee.. ^^$^^ . . etc..But as normal.. i won't have that much time to talk for so long...still need to wake up at 6.30am go camp as usual and start my driving day.. so let focus on my topic for today ba.. Dear and me...
Went batam with jun..1st time experience..as we can't get desaru 1 day trip..didn't really enjoyed the trip..not cos that we actually quarrel there but cos of the raining day that spoil our sport activity plus the lousy food..will nv go there again..but have to say.. it`s still wasn't that bad..cos jun was there with me..with her around..everything seem to be better...
Quarrelled quite often recently due to indifferent in views.. also partly due to trust and promises..most of time except for a few... it`s juz some very tiny whinny matters but i always blow it by making a frust over it.. and of course.. her strong headed mind also played apart in it... althought we both knew it`s juz for each other good..but some how... hai~
Won't discuss much about this here as it`s some private stuff..
Soemtimes me myself also quite confuse.. like.. what i want from her.. is that really what i want.. will she understand my intention... Good intention wun pay without understanding as it will end up becoming restrictions.. but that`s nv what i want..
爱是包容...爱是宽恕...但放着不理会....真的行吗? 有话直说...说了又不肯接受..对吗?两个相爱的人..多了疑惑..问题就来了...有了妒嫉..多了争吵...少了宽容..失去信任...
Lies..really is 1 thing i cannot accept...but have to admit..cos of my temper..sometimes lies eventually surfaces...
I am confuse..not whether i want to continue on this relationshipor not ..cos i know very well i wan and jun will be the only 1 that i want.. confuse cos.. i dunno when have i become so short tempered.. is it cos love her too much...making me worry about everything she do and become angered when she refused to listen and follow especially when she know it`s for her own good...really dun hope she fall sick...cos her weak body can't take it..but guess no 1 will understand how i feel about this but myself... to her.. it`s juz another restriction..
Will change from now on.. juz have to lossen up i guess.. let her have a taste of the fall and learnt from her mistakes i guess..(juz hope it`s not fatal 1..)
Of course... she`s not the only baby in our relationship..i am 1 too.. always 撒娇to her..cos the warm and care she gave is not anyone els that can give to me...
To be the fact..i like doing nothing with jun..juz sit down on some rocks by the beach.. lying on each other shoulder..enjoying the breeze and have a chat..looking into her eye and see my reflection in it...to me.. i really no need anything much... juz her by my side will do...
really love jun alot..enjoy every moment with her around...she`s not juz only my gf..but also an adviser or rather my baby sitter...as alot know.. i always *young* at heart.. But too.. i also have to keep an eye on this kitten who always fall sick..hai~
It`s getting late..1.30am le.. another 5hrs to sleep..guess will be stopping here... hope my angel who`s sick agian will sleep well tonight... i nv say but i am always worry.. guilty night...try to be harsh but can't.. cos really love my angel very very much...
ps:Sorry...
