Sunday, August 28, 2005

26-28 aug 2005 better and better.. Jy bday

26-08-2005 Fri [Any moment also a great moment]

sms and thinking of her as usual. keep counting down book out timing.not sensitive enough to realise i sms something wrong.. still have the cheek to sms dear gal that "up to u lor"..heng later on call back..phew...so set time meet around 10pm..

reached home around 6.45pm.nothing much to unpack as only went back to camp 1 day only..had a little chat with mum for awhile b4 i went out meet ww for dinner... juz hang around neighbourhood area as later on have to send him back..got this feeling pj will call and chnage the time..and true enough.. haha..meeting her at 9pm.. so after dinner with ww and chat alittle while then send him back and went off to orchard le..

Reached around 9pm waiting for my princess who went ktv...came after awhile.. and wanted to go over to thomson for prata..but.. recently my road direction abit....went paya lebar.. also... ended up went to bedok market* for the prata... went to the 1 pj and jy they all had when they were at ssc. the cheese egg really taste good.. manage to force her eat alittle bit more...had a good time..maybe cos juz the 2 of us.. after eating as still early..went over to end of ecp there sat down by the rocks and chitchat..dunno why i mistaken some trees or what for some humans... -.-.. but really with her around.. any simple stuff also seem so wonderful.. ya.. some will think this is juz some sweet talk..but i mean it..and the reward from her was so sweet. ^_^send pj home around 12.15 as someone had to reach home by 12.45am..不舍得but had to do so ba.. after sending dear gal home.. went pick up ww and meet wz at s11.(think this will be the last time i need to do that as ww bought bike le).as usual.. crap around..till 4am then went home..

27-08-2005 [JY`s bday.]
woke up at 9.45am..thanx to berena..then ginna..and afew other..but realised i accidentally sms pm instead of am..only when berena told me then noe..bath nd change as going to fetch dear pj for breakfast b4 her tuition..went clementi market for my you tiao.. and not hot curry rice..someone said she can't finish and share with me..but ok la since she did quite some of the stuffs...shared table with a family with 2 little boys... cute and cunning i guess.. like to act in order to drink the sugarcane drink..lolx..tabao some you tiao and stuff for grandparents b4 send pj to tuition.told me later no need to fetch her as her parent meeting her.. so after visited granny and grandpa.. went to woodland link bike shop wrapped the seat...(DUNNO WHICH ASS HOLE JEALOUS AND CUT THE SEAT WITH PEN KNIFE).. ^^^$$^^^ then went fetch ww who also wanna go queensway buy bike.. while i go settle installment..damn slow sia that counter lady...ended up met yuJ late.. played billard till almost 5pm b4 going over to HF to meet up yr go sentosa as pj will be late and asked me to go 1st..
reached sunset bay around 5.45pm.. nothing much for us to help out except a few balloon need to be blow up..then slack there.. and took a walk with yr..sound abit gay but ok la.. around 7pm yanli reached.. then berena they all also..slowly everyone reached except the 1 i waiting for and angeline..chatted till until almost time.. took awalk with yr again to try luck weather will see gal along the walk..but fail..took the shuttle bus back and notice they already there.. -.-.. was abit disappointed when she ignored me for awhile...then cut cake.. manage to hold her hand for awhile but also dunno why let go.. think still not ready to let the rest noe..
but dunno why everyone very keen tonight.. all start asking about my msn nick till i also dunno what to reply..and my dear gal didn't even help me... ...only when xr drag me to a corner and question me... then finally decided to tell them ba.. dunno if they were suprise or all the long expected this.. but think yanL quite stunned ba.. haha.. but also good la..no need to hide or what.. party ended around 10+pm..then decided to go bukit Merah mac to chat.. and of course.. pj with me while yr,youJ,ms,wanX share cab while jy join later. me and pj took the bus out to get bike.. 1st time took bus together.. somehow kinda sweet cos we say before we will take public transport and travel around someday...also cos she not allow to take bike.. long yet i hope the time can stop there longer...reached mac arou nd 11.50pm..even jy reached... chatted till 1+am b4 send gal home.. and walked her home also... somehow all these walking really helps us spent more time together also ba.. reached home around 2.30am.. still in my own world thinking of all the wonderful stuffs.. then chatted online with pj and then on phone.. that gal.. damn tired le also wun say.. and dunno how come i keep talking and talking for the night.. dunno what got into me... chatter box i guess...-.- but really a great night i must say.. thanx to Jy.. enjoyed myself ..

28th aug 2005 sun book in day
.. woke up at 11am.. bath everything and develop some pics.. going to get them later when i book in.. pj came online..doing some planning for next week also... now 3.16pm le.. must go prepare soon... sian.. really a enjoyable week..

Thursday, August 25, 2005

24th and 25th morning our 1st shooting star + john`s farewell

A day of fetching my princess from places to places.. feeling was great..maybe cos it`s still honeymoon period..but dun think that`s the case... fetch pj from sch and went chinatown for lunch..had 猪肉粥and鱼生 at chinatown market as well as soyabean milk... then went 大中国get mooncake for mr dear john who wanna eat that b4 he leaving sg..was deciding beside da dong hotel and da zhong guo b4 finally decided on da zhong guo...

As still early... went went to science center to take a walk and sit down rest awhile...as usual her head on my shoulder making me feel so wonderful..around 2.15pm then send her to tuition..sudden attack which fail... and i headed for home..finish up the card for john and something els... quite rush as going to fetch pj after that as thought her tuition ended at 4.30pm but turn out to be 4pm-415pm..

But ok la..wasn't late..phew~..wanna give her a suprisebut ended up kana suprised by her tuition`s kids..then send her to clementi for another tuition lor..can see she was quite tired as fall asleep on bike...so ride slower so as for safety...after reaching.. found a elderly corner and sit down let her rest for awhile as she really quite tired and time still early..but this gf really can't stay still and rest.. keep look around and check when hear any风吹草动..then send her up around 5pm b4 i went home..

At home until 11+pm.. slack chatted with pj..touch up on the farewell card..then meet wz 1st b4 i go fetch pj.. and oh ya.. thanx to wz for the little help.. if not sian1/2 sia. around 12.40am then went over to fetch her.the feeling really ^_^v . met her and she brought some tutu kui that she bought from clementi earlier on for me saying she noe i haven eat...sweet..really enjoyed it..then decided to go ECP 1st b4 go airport..enjoyed the walk with her...called ms up and she told us not to hurry.. so no choice but to "respect" her .found a spot and sit down chit chat...talk alot as usual... the scent from her hair..infact everything..hoping time wun tick so fast..was chatting happily 1/2 way when we saw A SHOOTING STAR!!!!!! can't believe my luck.. althought it`s not the 1st time... but saw it with someone special really is different... =)

finally around 3.15am then left ecp for airport T1..ms already there.. reached around 3.30am..met ms up but she like no expression sia...no reaction or nothing when saw us together..so juz sit and chat until 4am when john reaching..called john up ask where is he.. then gei siao said that "all the best..sorry that i can't send u off cos in camp". he sound touch but that`s not end of it..while waiting for john.. dunno pj or me asked ms she already guess so that we were together b4 we hold hand ah.. to our suprise..ms said she still in shock..tooshock to react at all...and the both of us was like.. ....

Finally saw john..manage to suprise him from behind..can tell how shock he was..haha..ok la..that`s what we want..manage to pass him all the letters..mooncake which later on share among the pple who send him off as cannot bring it oversea -.-.....took quite a no. of pics..as usual force me to smile... but ok la.. for john.. haha..but like a chinese saying "天下无不散之宴席" still have to say good bye to him no matters how..passed yr`s msg to him.. then called youJ to say some last words also...finally what come have to come.. he still have to leave...frankly..i am upset at all.. maybe cos i noe.. we will definitely meet again... and he`s now striking for his future.. his dream..rather than 依依不舍..we should support him...


after send john then send pj home while ms took mrt.. this silly gal of mine..keep worried that i will doze off or so.. ended up she was the 1 very tired..something happened when sending her home.. -.- think this will be the problem we facing now... but juz wanna say...dunno will that be the case... but i will not worry... cos what other think.. i will always prove them wrong..especially from now...and gal.. i know u will be reading this... dun keep things to yourself sometimes.. i am ready to share not only happiness but sorrow... remenber what i wrote and said.. cos it`s not juz verbally.. but will be taken in action too.. u should know better i not those who say for the sake of saying..you can have my words on this

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

22nd and 23rd Aug 2005 in my own world filled with her

Dun really noe what to say...this`s what called fall in love i guess..a very simple breakfast..a simple ride.. a simple sms of concern..a simple phone chat... and i will already think i am in some wonderland or so...who say u need to be complicated to feel love... a simple chat sitting by the roadside will make me feel great...

Was chatting on the phone.. still think it`s like a dream..from how we knew each other while we were in pri sch..lost contact after we left pri..contact again last yr.. and finally now together..thinking of it will make me smile..even if it`s juz some bo liao stuff...

althought it`s juz the begaining but some how seem like we were together very long le..maybe all the long been quite close ba.. dun really know what to write actually juz wanna share this feeling.. and voice out from my heart that i will love her with all the strength i can afford..

Monday, August 22, 2005

the amazing 24hrs (john`s farewell dim sum)

a long week this was.. there`s up and down of course. alot happened as usual.. but wun detail about that.. as what`s most important was what happened since 20th aug 4pm which really a wonderful night that i will always remenber and the things we said on the 21st..4.25am. will really cut short on this..juz wanna say I am really fortunate..and i will definitely treasure it hard.

21st Aug 2005 sun (last dim sum gathering with john b4 he leaving for usa on thur)

woke up late..suppose to wake up at 8am to get m/c but ended up 9.20am then woke up... rush down to my usual clinic but not open.. so went to another 1... waited damn long lor..10.05am then manage to be my turn.. stupid doctor insist not give me m/c till tue..and still charge me $44.. >:( .. rushed home wash up and rushed out again to fetch pj to harbour front meet the rest around 10.40am..tried to my best... but still 11am then met pj when we were suppose to meet the rest at 10.50am.. somemore i was the 1 that set the time..lock my helemt on the bike and bring the another with me as the weather look abit gloomy
reached HF and went up ourselve as the restwent up 1st le as table can only reserve for 15min.called back to company,ps,buddy to inform attend c while efficient pj manage to lead us to dragon gate(i forgotten which floor also.. -.-...)
quite alot pple turn up.. youjie, youwei, bokai, yanli, yinjie, yirui, jiyuan, john, wanxuan, manshao, peijun, yanwen, caiyan and of course me. been quite sometimes since so many pple meet up and what make it special also cos it`s the 1st time since dunno how many years wanxuan and caiyan meet up also..
had a hell lots of foods.. and of course alot of photos taken also.. real fun..just like before..can see john having alot of fun going around asking everyone take pics with him..(especially when we dunno when this chance will ever come again..)..not to forget about manshao who bake cake specially for john and 托john 的福.. everyone of us get to eat it also.. lolx =) .. dim sum ended around 2pm.. went and took some pics infron of HF mrt station..b4 we went to some chill place sit down and chit chat..wanX went home 1st with dim sum and came back soon after..but soon some start leaving..raining quite heavily yesterday..left pj,wx,cy,john and me chatting and taking photo again until dunno when then decided to leave after the rain stopped..
finally got my chance to.. then send pj home b4 i went home also...

around evening 7+pm meet up ww as he urge me to company him see and test bike.. so drag myself out of the house and go..the bike not bad and quite well maintained..too bad later while we had prata at gombak.. that seller called and said she sold off to another person as the person offered her $200 more..so disappointed ww no choice lor but lan lan... and dragged to my house help me warm up my ps2..very long nv touches it le.. haha.. then online chat with yr.. 1st time that we really share and chat so much althought i always quite good with him..

meet w* around 11+pm with ww and sit down chat.. also dunno what we chat but manage to chat till 1+am as the 2 of them tml need to work.. sent ww home.. on the jur as me why i so quiet.. told him i was thinking of stuffs that happened these few days and today...some how smile will juz surface for no reason.. haha..road very empty.. but we nv speed..juz enjoy the sight,breeze and chat till reached his place b4 i went home..

suprise to see jon online.. so chatted with him and got the pics from him also..damn efficient this time.. haha.. and also told him some words of encouragement hoping the best for him during his oversea studies.. definitely gonna miss him alot..the time everyone of us spend together over the past 1 yr..the photo session..the trips and crazy stuffs.. but what most important is we will definetely be looking forward to his next return.. :)

Sunday, August 14, 2005

13-14 aug 2005 2 days of my life..a mixture of feeling

wun update anything about my daily life as well this week... will only be talking about the 2 dates i stated... why..?? dun aks me why.. i always do stuffs without thinking much..juz always follow where my heart lead me to..

i dunno when she already start to stand a place in my heart.. i dunno when did i start to mind so much about her.. i dunno when did i start to mind so much how she feel..mind how she think of me..mind her up and down in mood...every single little stuff.. but i definitely noe she has already taken a big piece of my heart out from me..

i am lying if i say i feel nothing even if she choose the ans N. i am lying when i was telling her nothing will change between me and her even if the out come is N. I juz trying to put on a brave front to cover my worries.. to let her have a peace at mind instead of stressing out like me too...i wun say i am prefect.. if i am.. i wun be writing all these down here now....

confusion is what taken over me.. was i right to say the *1week* ? no wonder pple always said... <<世界上最痛苦和不安的并不是拥有或失去,而是等待的过程>> the feeling of waiting indeed is horrible..or at least to me.

nothing will change..that`s what promised.. althought i noe it`s hard to fulfil..but words out will not be taken back.. juz like smoking.. i dunno how i am going to do it.. but since i promised.. i will keep my promise..

1 week.. 7days.. haha.. some how.. it seem like 7yrs... or even juz 7sec... eager to noe..yet afraid at the same time...举棋不定....actually.. to be frank.. this long week.. saying to let her think tru how she really feel...but actually... it`s more like giving myself a chance to think tru..about stuff that happened these few mths..and learn to be patient for once instead of urging..

i have alot to say...but don't really noe how to express... mushy words are what people advice.. but i believe u will noe i dun use them.. cos it`s not how i show my care and concern... action always speak louder than words...

don't think pple out there really noe how i feel at the moment...some might even get confuse with what i am even typing now... my switching in mood and stuff.. nv expected the impact of her to be this great..

was thinking of getting m/c juz now to stay at home..but.. none open..maybe it`s juz fate..i have to accpet this week instead of trying to change the time..

enough of saying..it`s all up to waiting.. and all i can do is wait... although peeps out there told me i am 笨.. about the "slient week" and shall ignore and treat it nothing happen and take back my words and continue contacting with her till my book out..and ask for ans.. (i also feel so actually) but well.. i did my part and she need her time.. juz have to leave it to fate now though i alway say fate is in our hand..but definitely not this time... as it `s take 2 hands to clap.. what`s ur will be ur... and what`s not will nv be... thanx pple anyway..

i noe u definitely will be reading.. maybe it`s juz a hobby to u now or what i don't know..what i wanna say were said... take ur time and think...

p.s: those who can't understand.. dun try ur luck asking me..pls thanx

Sunday, August 07, 2005

1st aug to 8th aug .. a motive-less week

same stuff about army... except for some much here and there... lost all my motivation in army`s training... was wondering how come... started to slack.. no mood for otot run..i still behave like myself... when met up ww yesterday b4 what happened after that... was drinking and chatting for awhile.. come to think of it... i can't understand what i been doing for the past 2mths.. where i got all the energy and put in so much effort...and suddenly all seem to disappeared... and finally realised all the long... i haven been doing all these training for myself..

i noe this entry going to be rather short... not because nothing to write.. infact i have too much to share.. but way too much that i don't think i could ever finish... how many pple can actually really say they noe me well.. noe what i think...not many i guess... i am a frank person.. but now adays tend to keep alot of stuffs to myself...even ww who is my best pal i also will tend to keep some from him..

meeting up ww and wz later.. dun think wanan meet too many pple..sometimes.. when u really wanna chat ur heart out.. 1 or 2 pple u trust is way more enough... not everything can be share with anyone...

dun really noe what i am talking.. quite mess up now.. been thinking alot since woke up..

finally realise....

if wondering why this post have been change.. cos something happened juz now made me thought alot and guilty..won't go into detail... juz really grateful it juz minor injuries...if not will really blame myself for rest of my life... it`s really time to stop acting childish and emotional... dun wanna regret when something does really happen 1 day...

when time in need.. really see who the real buddy... for one i really thanxful i noe ww and became great pal... no matter rain or shine.. he will always be there for me..inculding juz now..

what`s more can i ask for ..

realised why this blog now so important to me.. and what i had been posting was wrong... daily life is not what needed.. but what learnt from daily life and what that should be treasure..

real sorry