Counting wishing and wondering

Doesn't really have anything in mind to blog actually..things getting better and normal now..ease on mind...

wasn't able to meet up much with jun this week cosshe bz-ing with sch word and all the restrictions..don't really feel good of course..missing her badly..as usual..=P

and other 16days to 22yrs old...really fast..and feeling abit old..(luckily i always feel young at heart.haha) forgot which friend asked me what i want for my bday this yr..n i ans nvm..no need..but actually..what i really wanna said was "i already recieved the greatest gift on earth le..and that`s jun." my only wish i guess will be able to cherish this angel and always having her by myself..nothing can beat havin her in my life..

some people sayid b4 it cos honeymoon period that`s y we are so loving...but the true is..it will always be this way cos my love for jun will only increase w/o unlimit.

army doing fine now too except for all e guard duty we need to do every month..sad right..but no choice..after all it`sjuz a 2 yrs of [S]erve [A]nd [F]*** off..misses the time with freedom b4 army..missing sch life... definely will continue upgarding myself after ns...this will not be where i stop..

guess i have blog quite some stuffs today..realise now adays my blogging really base more on my feeling instead of daily life anymore.. pefer this way too...kk..will stop here for now..hope after this week will be more care free..cheers

ps:realised..blogged so much when i say dunno what to write..guess i also quite a chatter box -.-

what to do...

Things hasn't been smooth recetnly..what we have worried finally came after so long..i dun even noe why...i mean from e begaining it`s this way at least i can understand..but it wasn't so... dunno what they have been thinking..their weird thoughts are driving me to e edge..after all i am still a human..no matter how much stress i cn absorb..there`s always a limit..i dunno when that limit will reach..and i won't wanna know..

worse of all....a this time of all..i can't find a soul at all even to get myself drunk..what can be worse..to forget all these for even a sec also can't...i know how important ** mean to me and i wun ever wanna lose **..but really able to pull everything??i believe i can..from young till now..everytime when stuffs goes rights..only make me wanna do it more to prove nothing is impossible..same goes for now...cos i noe this is wat i wan..and i definely will regret if i lose**..so hell no will i ever let that happen..

nothing much tonight..be a stressful week yet can't really show...wanna go out middle of e night yet e programme dun suit or can't find ww..etc..can really say...when time feeling helpless..blogging is still e best way...

very long since i last really drink..think it`s time to get back that feeling especially rarely that i will not be riding tonight...Cheer!! may all e problem be down the throat too...

Last but no least...jun ah jun...dun always stress urself with sch works..and late night..cos seeing u always get sick is soemthing i won't want...thanx for all e love u giving m..but pls do love urself more too... remenber our promises... love jun always

a rare entry...words from heart

finally have a chance to sit infront of e com now typing(cos sis not home)..my com down le...army bz...+ i wana spend more time with jun and catch up with friends...have to say..juggling btw all these arn't ez...simpily dun have enough time to use...luckily for me...or shall i say..a fortunate guy i am... to have a understanding + super sweet gf who always spare a thought for me.... really glad to haf such a wonderful gal as my gf who always cheer me up during my rainny days...

life havn been easy..driving course was fun yet tiring..got to get back in touch with some army friends.. a wonderful experience..but good things come and go..so does e course...went back to unit and started e driving and training...alot guard duties... and i mean alot.. so far did 3 le..another 2 coming up this mth...nxt week on course again..this week ammo driver..weekend burn...wanna meet up with jun and e rest for majong also haf to cancel..hai...

have to say..jun really a perfect gf..at least to me...nv endng surprise for me... xmas..v day etc.. really love her alot or shall i say..will definetely lov her tru out for life...wan her 22 be my 1 and only 1 gal for life..

my temper hasn't been very good recently...always provoking jun n making her upset..yet..she always try to cheer me up..noe how hard it was to put up with my nonsense..really thanx alot..definetely will change for e better...

army`s bz life make me cherish quality time with jun more...can't have enough of jun...missing her all e time but can only llss...how i hope that i can always b by her side when she`s down or need someone...

been mths since last updates...will try to update more of course..but really need to find times.. those who are still around...thanx for all e waiting... n last but not least to jun if she happened to read it some day... "do take care of urself silly gal..dun always stay up so late especially when ur body can't take it...dun always degrad urself..u r really indeed my wonderful gf n u haf did enough for me...it's time i do soemthing for u...hang on there for ur sch...juz another 2mths 2 go..will alwasy be by u side if i can to go tru everything together...love u always"

3=am le..think will be going back to camp now since no 1 at home...will try to update more often whe i get a new com..for the time being..sorry pple... anyway now while typing all these... i am missing jun again...really miss her alot and feel bad about weekend can't meet up... S.A.F...really sucks.....