I am back… Took less than a month for me to be back... it’s either good or bad... as simple as that… it’s either I have a lot to say… or something I want to say.. As simple as that…
Things just wasn’t right… at least that’s what I think. Life wasn’t good for me. Not sure how to express it… not going to further explain also… fast moving track… suddenly slowed down… kind of lost even though direction is so clear. This is absolutely bad…
Putting on a smile to hide troubles yet expecting people to understand… something I really wondering what am I thinking… things starting to change in all aspect… definitely not a good sign..
Fickle mind I am… lost I am... Just can’t find any words to describe my mood now days… when will uncertainty becomes certainty…
The person I thought would understand me the most failed me… the person that I needed support from crushed me…
Deep within me.. I have this fear… toward failure or what I am not sure… but this makes me to create a wall and shield to protect myself from any harmfulness.
What to do what to do… I can only have myself to blame… trusting no 1… not even those I once trusted…
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Nov issues and highlight (me the lazy blogger)
Won’t be going into too much detail this month. (Ok and ya... now this place has becoming a monthly blog -.-)
Things to highlight:
1.Gotten my Honda Fit 2008 on the 3rd of Nov. Intended to make it into VIP theme but now becoming a chip & dale car due to influence of Jun. Went for my 1st car servicing yesterday (15th nov).
2. Looking forward to sis coming back from Aus this coming Thurs (20th Nov). Looking forward to the gift she bringing back too.. lolx
3. Busy with work... have a few head to head incidents with big boss. But issue solved. Now rushing reports for Monday big war... (#-.-)
4. Looking for job now. Sending resume here and there. Hope to secure a better pay job. Will be better if the company willing to wait for me till Keppel’s bonus. ^_^
5. Had a heart to heart chat with Dear yesterday (15th nov). Glad she actually told me everything... or most of it. Conclusion…she really thinks and worried too much and some how loving acting but she can’t really act… But this will only make me love her more and more everyday by her innocent and blurry Princess... don’t always hide stuff as there should be no hidden facts between us… remember this.
6. Everyone getting married, every adult urging me to get marry… I urging sis to get marry to stop them from urging me... lolx… ok to be frank... I also want to settle down with Jun soon. But 1st of all must be more stable in my job 1st… another few years will be fine but sooner I don’t mind too * hint * * hint *. (^_^)
7. Grandma recover very well and mum decided to move back next wed. happy and sad at the same times... happy as grandma wins the battle between the illness and her. Sad as I know although grandma and mum always argue… but grandma actually like mum a lot. Mum also but the 2 of them are too strong headed… and grandma definitely will feel lonely after mum & dad move back.
Conclusion… once again.. despite I said won’t be going into too much detail… still typed quite a long entry.. but that’s me… a lot of thoughts and stuff to share always.. not enough time to blog… =P anyway… will be stopping… came back on Sunday to rush work.. but till now I haven started… WAHAHAHA…
And oh ya.. RIP to that cleaner that got bitten to death by the white tigress in ManDai Zoo. I not sure why you wanted to jump into the tiger’s ground but the pain was brought to your family for your action. Next life please do not do this again. Personally think the tigress should be put to sleep as they are wild life predators after all. Once they have the instinct to hunt and taste of flesh blood. It’s not easy to control them anymore.
Just 1 last thing for my princess. No matter what, when, where, how… you will always be my beloved Princess jun for life. I promise.
Things to highlight:
1.Gotten my Honda Fit 2008 on the 3rd of Nov. Intended to make it into VIP theme but now becoming a chip & dale car due to influence of Jun. Went for my 1st car servicing yesterday (15th nov).
2. Looking forward to sis coming back from Aus this coming Thurs (20th Nov). Looking forward to the gift she bringing back too.. lolx
3. Busy with work... have a few head to head incidents with big boss. But issue solved. Now rushing reports for Monday big war... (#-.-)
4. Looking for job now. Sending resume here and there. Hope to secure a better pay job. Will be better if the company willing to wait for me till Keppel’s bonus. ^_^
5. Had a heart to heart chat with Dear yesterday (15th nov). Glad she actually told me everything... or most of it. Conclusion…she really thinks and worried too much and some how loving acting but she can’t really act… But this will only make me love her more and more everyday by her innocent and blurry Princess... don’t always hide stuff as there should be no hidden facts between us… remember this.
6. Everyone getting married, every adult urging me to get marry… I urging sis to get marry to stop them from urging me... lolx… ok to be frank... I also want to settle down with Jun soon. But 1st of all must be more stable in my job 1st… another few years will be fine but sooner I don’t mind too * hint * * hint *. (^_^)
7. Grandma recover very well and mum decided to move back next wed. happy and sad at the same times... happy as grandma wins the battle between the illness and her. Sad as I know although grandma and mum always argue… but grandma actually like mum a lot. Mum also but the 2 of them are too strong headed… and grandma definitely will feel lonely after mum & dad move back.
Conclusion… once again.. despite I said won’t be going into too much detail… still typed quite a long entry.. but that’s me… a lot of thoughts and stuff to share always.. not enough time to blog… =P anyway… will be stopping… came back on Sunday to rush work.. but till now I haven started… WAHAHAHA…
And oh ya.. RIP to that cleaner that got bitten to death by the white tigress in ManDai Zoo. I not sure why you wanted to jump into the tiger’s ground but the pain was brought to your family for your action. Next life please do not do this again. Personally think the tigress should be put to sleep as they are wild life predators after all. Once they have the instinct to hunt and taste of flesh blood. It’s not easy to control them anymore.
Just 1 last thing for my princess. No matter what, when, where, how… you will always be my beloved Princess jun for life. I promise.
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