18-20th may 2005

18th may 2005 wed

basically nothing much.. today paper a killer... but shouldn't be a problem...met up with pj and ms at lps till morning 5am b4 we went home... can't imagine these 2 ladies had so much to chat....

19th may thur

woke up and called simon.. he was helpful enough to come over my place and teach me the graph... but change location to hkcc as james they all they.. dunno suay or wat.. this guy dun really noe how to sit bike ba.. shake and move around.. the spoil my brake light~~~~ stay at hkcc for around 1hr b4 i went off..cos most of the stuffs i noe already.. went over to ah lai to get all the stuffs fixed...wasted $38.... then went home.. slack .. then at night when studying dennis suddenly msn me said simon and a few going to study tru the night... so went over find them and study togather.. lucky i went.. cos got a formula wrong... around 2+am kinda bore so sms pj and later chatted for awhile b4 continue studied till morning..

20th may fri. LAst day as a student.

reached sch around 6.40am with jh,ben,simon..eat breakfast and relax.. rest my mind telling myself not to think of anything learound 8+am went to the hall.. the paper was easy..hope can score... ended around 10+am.. went home and change as dennis they all coming over my here to soccer.. our last soccer as ite student..was damn tired as haven sleep but still play la...around 2+pm then went home.. took a bath ,change and went to visit simon(pri)..but can't find the place..+raining and rushing time.. so give up.. definetely will find it b4 my army...meet dongH at clementi.. bought the stuffs and went over fetch WanR(wanQ sis).. went back to ave 4 set up the bbq stuffs and so.. took pics wait for the rest come and chat...was very fun.. and nice... cos now adays all of us quite bz and seldom meet up.. but t he bond always there...bbq till 2+am b4 went home as they noe i haven pack bag for tioman trip..

ok..now taking a break from studying... can't update much as rushing tru my note and try to memorise as many as i coould as a lot of stuffs can't remenber... damn... i hate this feeling... can't make a mess out of it tml.. gotta make it...... left 2 papers only..must not mess up... anyway... share this pic with u alll.. waws looking tru the net while takeing a short break and found this... quite meaningful... will update the blog after friday.. or may not.. cos will be real bz once exam over all the way till army.. wish me luck pple ... need it badly 

a lonely night

went out for a short break juz now meet up with wz and lou.. smuggle the super4 out.. 1st time ride it at night.. feeling quite different... only meet up for awhile 1/2hr maybe.. juz to enjoy a break.. after send lou back.. went home..tried to go faster than i tried on the way back from sch that day.. and woo.. can reach 160km/hr.. can continue somemore.. wonder how fast is the top for orignal super4 vetec.. as i close throttle once it reaches 160km/hr
study awhile msn awhile.. reward myself a 15min break for wvery 2 pages i memorise.. but after that hard to concentrate as sis sick.. quite worried about her cos since yesterday till now.. still 38.8...is a very high temperture.. think later 6am still like this must send her to hospital le...as she keep vommiting the water that she drank.. hai~ wat a night.. me and my self.. fighting for tml.. think stop here... end of break


continue of the lonely night.......4.43am 16th may 2005

finally finished prepare most of the stuff for exam later..shouldn't be a problem i hopeso much happened juz now... been studying and taking care of sis at the same time juz now...keep vomiting.. around 2+am then she deicded to give up and go hospital.. so i woke up dad and mum...mum juz jumped out of the bed when she heard hospital...over worrying...so they pack up and change to head for nuh i think..can't tag along with them as i having exam later...but did ask sis bring a bottle of water along ..and the medicine.. ask her ask the doctor izit she dun suit the 药..and if no need stay there then ask for a injection for her fever... afew more hourse to the 1st paper of the week.. hopefully everything goes well later... same thing goes for sis also...

The another group pics of all of us with john in it... nice pics huh 

juz recieved another batch of sentosa`s pic from john yesterday.. so share some here.. from front left:Jy and me. back left:YinJ,pj,yanW . nice huh... i lazy to get up so all came over ..hahahaha...anyway..thanx to john for this pic(that`s why he`s not in it) 

14-15th may 2005 the eve b4 exam. 20days to army..

14th may 2005..

basically nothing much... after stressing myself so much yesterday... feeling better today and continued to study... around 2+am meet up with ww went newton circle ate bin he and stuffs.. he quite stressed up sia... i find it ridiculous too.. wun go into it since it`s not my problem.around 5+am then went home

15th may 2005

went studied with simon they all as usual at 1pm..but realised nothing much to pratice anymore except memories some notes now.. so left after sitting awhile with them.. went over to grandma `s house as grandpa not feeling well..sat there chat with grandma and help grandpa up or drink when he needed.. but around 3pm went home le as grandma said i going to exam tml dun stay too long.. also cos sis having high fever..so ask me brought some medicince home..
reached home..sis went to the doctor again.. and damn.. the doctor nv gave her injection... she still 38.7degree.. if tml still so will rush her to hospital maybe... called pj help me buy a 4d no. for me as my here alot pple... asked her to buy 2164 $3 big for me only as paisei ask her to buy more.. wanted to buy 6421 and 9695 as well... but nv.. and damn... at night 6421 opened in the starter.... ^^^^$^^^^nvm..juz no luck i guess..
Keep asking sis to drink water as she only listen to me..but at the main time need to revise my exam.. but ok la.. all almost done except 1 1/2 page of note to memorise..quite easy la... now 10+pm.. taking abreak 1st b4 i start my last preparation till morning le... no sleep tonight!!!! wish me luck

juz some thought b4 i head to dreamland

If life is a staright line ---------- will we really still care about what we have? but living in a up and down world... how many of us can really asorb the stress and problems and convert it into energy...me?? neh... i am very uncertain where i am heading now.. where`s my limit??
Life is about improving and achieve the best out of this world..but what`s come next after we achieved what we want.. achieve more?sat there in blank?
What we realy achieved in our life? a cert? a stand in this reality world?what`s really important.. what do we really want? money, a name , love？？

facing all the problems and solve it is the right way.. but face it and find that no solution to it.. is escaping sometimes a better choice?

this is really a night that everything suddenly come across me and around me.. from studies stress ... from friend`s who now encounter love`s stress.. another 1 who worrying about future...wooo...

always thought i can handle all these stress myself... but i was wrong.. i am after like anyone.. when stuffs goes wrong.. will stress.. when due date nearer..will stress... really a stressful night indeed... wanna take abreak from stress and found out so many around me also fell into the trap of stress...

but never worry.. been tru so much...definetely will overcome this as well... after all i am a human.. but a mighty 1.... CHEER!!!!!

enough of speech..time to sleep and fight tomolo!!!

4.28am 14th may 2005

12-13 may 2005 count 23days to army

basically... i can only say STRESS!!! STRESS!! STRESSS!!!!!!! been preparing notes and study these 2 days... ahhhh!!!!!!!! juz keep rest study rest study..some tv...then study!!!!-.-...

today meet up with simon and a few to study ie!!! my math kinda cope up... after long duration of doing the math... did not improve but worse.... can't think poperly for simple math formula...!!! ahhh... think i need a break... past examination also nv so worried... dunno why this t ime round so stressed up.... tml meeting up again... need more pratice and guide....

I REALLY NEED A BREAK FOR NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

wanna meet up friends for awhile to take a break.. but change my mind also... now slacking around also dunno wat to do.. dun feel like touching those notes and maths for now... guess resting awhile more ba.... luckily have my blog here for me to rant~

11-05-2005 wed.. date nearer...

woke up at 12noon and wash up went sch... wearing outside clothes since it`s consider not actual sch day... went tru the papers and getting tips.. but around 2+pm went home le.. very fast sia...

reached home slack and rest... all the way till 8+pm b4 i start writting notes.. was supposed to meet simon at 8pm.. but last min told him i think i studying myself for today... then surf forum for awhile around 11pm to take a break... then msn with some friends and sms also.. told my self to continue at 12mn but still slacking now.. thinking going to start soon as already 12+mn le..


some thoughts tonight... times really flies... 2 yrs going to over juz like this... juz a few more days only... then after that army starting juz within 2week after last paper...time realy rushing.. infact.. i am racing with time now.. to accomplish more stuffs.. meet up more friends.. treasure every gathering... cos no longer young.. once army out.. alot of them will start working le.. the chance of meeting up then will nv be the same.. neither for me nor them.. so wat i can d o now is treasure every moment... sl going to aus tml le.. a safe trip for him.. time really flies.. all growing up le.. we are no longer the kids that juz play and nv think of future.. but i rather so.. thinking of future is a headach..and alot unseem obsticales ahead waiting...
how will change or remain as after 2 yrs.. i can't tell myself.. seem too many pple who changed these few yrs..some for the better some for the worse...won't say much about those stuffs... counting down the dates to exam and army...24days more..
i take it quite easy actually.. not worrying for myself except for mum... cos she`s always at home.. as sis usually stick with bf nowadays , study or working part time ... can tell she`s bore.. once joked with her that once i go army.. no one can chat with her and quarrel with her le... and to my suprise.. she actually said " 对咯..你去当兵了我不懂要家里干嘛?"a simple sentence... a few words... can tell how much she`s going to be not use with life with out me.. friends around me noe i always quarrel with her.. but like i always tell them.. maybe it`s a way we communicate.. funny but it does bring us closer...hope dad will spend more time at home with her ba.2ndly is grandparents ba... grandpa not really feeling well recently..sometime looks strong..sometime quite week.. wanna chat with him.. but dunno how also... cos since young i nv chat much with him also.. more with grandma.. until now when i go visit them.. usually also chat with grandma only..
guess i juz has to take things as it is.. worrying won't solve anything as i still have to face it after all.. going to miss alot of friends and family... making new friends definetely.. but i have no room for more.. i am happy with the friends i have now and hope nothing will change..

think i talk too much le.. now 1am.. time to continue my notes... MUST FINISH UPＴＨＩＳ EXAMINATION AND ENJOY!!!!!!

10th may 2005 what have i been doing??

what have i been doing today?? tueday.. 6days more to exam... am i keep on sleep... wake up look tru the exam stuffs for a while..then sms the rest about the supper thing..
pj called around 6pm told me she lost her way on the cab..lolx.. funny cab driver... dunno the way still dare to drive her.... ended up made 1 big round from ang mok kio back to clementi and heard she was late...
around 10pm left home.. took dad`s helmet along..reached clementi around 10.30pm and realised the block pj mention was those nearby yanX living now.. but dunno which block..lost her no. waited for 15min then that poor gal came down from giving tuition..so went over to orchard meet up with ms+ jy , yr and yl.. but when reached.. realised yr nv turn up cos sleeping.. yl still movie and asked us go ahead.. but sl joinned us.. so park my bike at orchard as jy say he driving us..
Went over to bedok 85 for supper.. the food of course good as usual but think not everyone used to soup bak chou mee.. also ordered some other stuffs.. after supper moved back to cine-.- then settle there for a drink and chat... till around 2+am then went home..sent pj home also.. on the way back drizzling..-.- suay sia.. forgotten wat time i reach home..think 3+am.. watched abit of soccer b4 i went to sleep//