Yesterday just had my FTT.. hope can pass... but nv ask for much since i nv study the test at all... only b4 the test 7-8hrs then i remenbered got FTT...saw a old friend at the driving center.. also taking the test.. but didn't really chat much.. like got a gap in the middle... then help ww top up his acc... feel so werid that his atm card is with me sia.. like my gf or wat..lolx... but who cares...the few of us are so close that this kind of method doesn't really matters..
slept very early yesterday... and ended up woke up at 3am this morning... watched show i dl from BT and server.. think quite alot today... was chatting with a online friend YX.. and once again back to the topic of Uni students... really feel the gap between me and my pri sch mates sometimes... not in term of fun.. but... i also don't really know how to describ it ba... maybe i am just Zi Bei.. that they did so well and heading for a bright future and i am still in the middle of no where.. or maybe a shaky future ahead... i know alot pple been telling me as long as i continue to study hard now.. i still make it... ya.. as long as... but how much longer i can have.. no longer young now... somemore i am a guy.. can't really take my own sweet times studying...
Been bz and cope up with alot of things recently.. no time to meet yj they all... and infact... i also dunno why.. maybe still quite bothered by that incident occured during exam period and wat jy said that time..don't really feel the same as before somehow...
Always thought i am old enough to handle problems on my own now... but i am wrong... i am after all just a human... a guy who looks strong on the outside but needs alot concern and care within...
Jus t recieved a call from Jac just now... told me she`s sick... poor thing... but nothing much i can do also... just hope she get well soon ba.. was suppose to meet pj they all 8.30.. but john can't make it home in time.. so postphone to 10pm...
i suddenly realised recently meeting pj they all quite often... which is as it mean we are all getting togather again.. but somehow.. sometimes when thought of where they at now and where i am now quite dismoralising..
ahh..drop the dismoraling part... so gald i manage not to smoke for 2weeks le... but somehow.. sometimes smokes still coming out from my mouth.. guess i really smoked too much last time.. but will tried not to smoke again now... cos wat can stop me from smoking now is my determination and friends around... thanx for all those who show so much concern for me too...
think i will stop here for today... actually just wanna write afew lines.. but dunno why suddenly wrote so much
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