Tuesday, February 24, 2009

24th FEB 2009 Thoughts from within... memories lane..

Slacking 1 whole day in office again…Bore with nothing to do, so watch 2 meaningful movies. “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” “10 promises to my dog”. Nice but draggy especially “TCOBB”. like the part where brad pitt describe how things can be different if everything take place earlier or later just by a few sec or few min… every event play a part for something that happened. Rate it 3.3/5.

As for “10PTMD”, it’s about a little gal who lost her mum due to illness and company by her dog and dad through her growing up and the 10 promises set by her mum to her dog... a heart warming show I will say… 3/5.

Anyway…recently really quite bore… till the extend I am actually reading my own blog right from the beginning all the way till the most recent post... Have to say, it’s really refreshing when you read your own stuffs… bringing up memories that hidden deep within… the changes that took place over the years… quite amaze by myself that after almost 6years..I am still updating this blog… think next time must print all these entries out and keep as a dairy... lolx.

Set aside the jokes… time do really flies… almost 6 years of changes… a lot of good and bad things came along the years… One of the biggest changes shall be my languages… English dialog to be exact… not use to speaks in English in the past until I start meeting up the Pri school people… took quite awhile to actually adjust myself. Also credit to Sweet Jun for correcting me all these years… don’t be mistaken… she’s not fussy… I requested for her coaching… o.O Anyway, the 3 happiest things that happened these few years…

1) 21st ague 2005 4.25am – Our love story started… until now everything that had happened were like the previous day and night still fresh in my mind… *blush*
2) Grandma recovered from her illness… Till now I still believe it was a miracle as even the doctor said she won’t pull through
3) Getting my car… a Very big decision to make.

Of course… when there is something to be happy about. There will surely be some misfortunate event too. Till now… the greatest loss will still be the death of grandpa during my army time. I held his hand till his last breathe, not sure if that was considered lucky… everyone was there and the sadness in the eye of all… for the 1st time someone really so close actually passed away… regretted why I only talked to grandma most of the time for the past 20+years and so little words with grandpa… but like I said.. he will always be remember.

Read about those younger days or shall I say the time before most of us went to army… those endless night chat by playground/ s11 or just with ww or wz travel around eating… talking about how things will change after a few year and can never be the same again… cherish all the time that we can have while we are still students… now looking back.. quite grateful that I actually jotted all these stuff down… and so glad that after 5-6years writing that down… we still meeting up weekly.. not as often as before due to work and gf commitment… guess this will stick on and continue for another 10years or so…

Have a lot of thoughts after reading…. Seeing how much we have progress.. improve… the promises we made and whether we actually still keeping it… even if it’s something bad… learn from it and grow…

Wondering why I writing all these…?? Actually all these thoughts came to me after talking with sweet Jun for awhile regarding reading my own blog… had a good time laughing and refreshing the images from the past… really grateful that after so many years… most of the people that are important to me are still in my life… *Cherish*

Monday, February 23, 2009

23rd FEB 2009

Very tried… Think not enough sleep yesterday…really tired today… wanted to say this morning… but till now still feel like sleeping…
Drove with ½ opened eye… -.- nothing to do at work as basically not wise for me to do also since Thursday will be last day. Anyway… slacking and hoping time will pass faster so that I can go home and relax sooner… lolx… talk with Wy and Din regarding the new job…. hope it will really be a better job… going to miss this 2 cocksters.

steven
11oohrs

shopping spree

Continual of 21st FEB Very Very Sweet Girl of Mine

Knocked off at 11.30am. Went over to grandma’s place… She was sleeping soundly when I reached… Da Gu ma was there doing household. Was told that grandma went out early in the morning to red hill on her own to buy vegetables… just reached home and exhausted from all the walking -.-… It’s not that we don’t allow her to go out, but always think it will be good if there’s someone accompanying her as her age is catching up, also to prevent her from getting injure… anyway, had lunch with grandma after she woke up, talked about current job and the upcoming 1… really chatted for quite awhile till it was 1.50pm before I left to bukit timah to pick Sweet Jun from tuition.

Raining cats and dogs lo… went over to IMM. Manage to find a parking lot at level 2. ( just nice when we reach the spot, the other driver going off). Jun always bring me luck. Went get a ice crem cone from mac.(I seriously love the ice cream there). Then bought a banana crepe and a roti mama. Really enjoy this kind of small small stuff. With her. After finishing we went to G2000, recommended by WZ but sweet Jun claimed that she also know this place having offer. No kidding.. it’s seriously cheap… We bought 2 shirt at $29 each and 1 shirt at $39… and~ 2 pants for $50. cheap right!!! All the color chosen by Sweet Jun… and she paid for all the items and including a pair of shoes which cost $53 ^_^ . Very sweet of Jun to actually pay all the stuff saying it’s for starting of my new job. Went home put down the stuff and rest awhile as it was raining heavily…left home again at 6pm went Rui Chun for diam sum dinner. Food nice.. we ordered 11 items but the bill on $20.70.
Was really full by the end of the meal.

Headed down to Orchard as we were catching the 9.40pm movie “Slump Dog Millionaire”. Drop by Hereen for a walk… think earlier on the food a little unclean or what.. both of us stomach ache and had to rush to the “little john”. While waiting for Sweety Jun.. walking around and decided to window shop watches… when Jun came out… joined me and decided to get me a watch also since I lost mine and for starting of new job. went to quite a few shop and finally stopped by fossil and both of us decided on a watch on 1st glance. Really like the watch a lot.

After all the shopping… went collect the tickets and headed for the movie. I have to say this… Never expected Bollywood movie to be this good. The way they bring out the story and explaining how the main actor actually knew the answer to the questions no doubt lowly educated… The hate and love between the brotherhood and love for his dream gal. The part that catches me the most should be the Riot in India and the reality dark life of the beggars in Mumbai. Recommend everyone to watch this movie… something new and never experience before…. Rate it 9/10.

After the movie… went home straight after sending Jun home as both of us were damn tired… Pi no long after playing some games…

Really thankful to Jun for all the stuff she bought… Especially when she always thinks twice buying stuff for herself… But do hope she will pamper herself more instead of others.. or maybe she just wanted to tied me up with all the stuff she bought… =X ok… kidding…


22nd FEB 2009

Woke up around 10.15am… quite surprised by myself to wake up at this timing as I was so tired last night… anyway, decided to go lunch with mum and also to author the length of my pant… we sure know how to drag…. From 10+am drag until 12noon then we manage to get out of the house… Sis and YX joined us for lunch too.. mum paying of course…. Was quite pissed off just before we went out after sis told me my watch was found… I had been searching for days and asked them all said never see… asked mum about it and she also said don’t know… Ended up it was like the watch I placed it on the living room table… mum as usual just drop anything that’s doesn’t not belong to her back to our room. And without asking whose watch it was… she put in on sis bed thinking it ‘s belong to her and don’t how it dropped inside sis’ s bag and only realized it after almost 1 week… Was damn pissed off as I keep asking and all say never see… ended up made Jun wasted money to buy me a watch that’s not necessary…. Feel damn angry and bad at the same time… told Jun about it and wanted to pay for the watch since the change in plan… she rejected but I decided to at least pay ½ of the price for it.

Anyway… after awhile things got calm down and we went out for lunch.. went to this place nearby Jurong East and Bukit Batok for roasted duck rice and roast pork… have to que sia… But I will say it worth the wait… Going to bring Jun here soon.

Went to Bukit Panjang Plaza with mum to walk and edit the pants… quite like spending this kind of time with mum… and also no need to pay for any expenses!! =X But BPP quite boring la… nothing much to walk…

Went home after the pants collected and dropped by NTUC… it has relocated at the condo… basement. The shops occupy the basement and 1st floor of the building. Looking forward to the grand opening but at the same time feeling the threat to the noise level in my neighbourhood… -.-

Slack at home all the way till night time… talk with Jun for awhile and meet up WZ for a short while.. at 12.55am MN … crazy huh…
Reached home jump into the bed and realized I can’t sleep… turn and turn up 4.30am before dozing off finally

Saturday, February 21, 2009

writing freely

20th FEB 2009

Continual of the day event… Supposed to meet up KW and Wz for movie or chill. Ended up kw airplane as he got some issue with someone… so we try to get SS whose was damn fickle minded. Keep changing his mind until I gave up. Anyway, in the end went Safra Mt Faber to try our luck on jackpot… no luck… wasted $15 each… then played pool… won~ lucky… then headed down to pasi panjang for prata supper while Wz had Maggie goring. Very long never visited this store le... a little bit out of the way for us. Used to come here with Sweet Jun… but have to say… they do serve good food. Anyway after the supper sent wz home before headed home and “chit chatted” with jun… Tried to find my watch that MIA but so result…. Wondering where did it go.. not the 1st watch that gone MIA in the house.. creepy…

21st FEB 2009

Answering doubt of colleagues that asked me regarding my resignation… came back to office but other to do at all… more like killing time…. Surfing net… writing blog… booked tickets for SD millionaire at cine 9.45pm… hope it will be a nice show… shopping day today with Jun… amazingly… I will be the 1 going to buy stuff… looking forward to it.. going to pay his father a visit in hospital too.

Friday, February 20, 2009

twist and changes

17th FEB 2009

Kept talking rubbish on email with R & G. Finally decided meeting place…. knocked off at 4.30pm as I wanted to go over to grandma house. Chit chatted with grandma till around 6.30pm before I went over to Jurong point to meet G. Upon reaching… R Sms-ed said she was tied down by work… not able to meet us in time or might not even meet us…. So no choice but to use my Duo Ming Zhui Huen Call and told her that G & I will go over find her… think she don’t have a choice but to agree ba.lolx… finally met up at 8.15pm (damn long lo) and decided to go Bugis for steamboat. The food actually so so la… but the company not ba lo… after dinner bought some apple S and send them to Jun’s place … made use of the chance to intro them to her also… sent them home… vomited and rushing to stomach… bad sign…..~~~

18th FEB 2009

Diarrhea… so never go work today… plus already make up my mind to tender. So decided to rest at home. Think must be from yesterday steamboat with the girls… -.-… anyway… was quite surprise to learn that Wz was also at home… so asked him to go Queenstown’s polyclinic as there’s the fastest… within 1hr… finished everything… Pb called… so both of us met him and BH at Taman Jurong for lunch… talk cock awhile before going home rest and went soccer again…. Am I Really Sick??? O.O

19th FEB 2009

Woke up early to day as going down to sign the document. Was start in the jam. Never know from CCK to west coast actually need 40min lo… anyway after signing the LOA… went down to Taman Jurong area for the medical check up. Stupid clinic told me not much pple… my foot sia~~ made me waited for around 1hrs then my turn… reached there at 10.30am… go off at 12.30pm…. hai~
Met pb at the coffee shop below in my area as cl came to cut air… never know that my here got such a saloon that pple actually willing from east to west to trim hair~ but ok la… due to her… manage to chit chat with pb for quite awhile.
Took a nap and went school… after school meet up sweet Jun to go Yishun for tau hui. So cute lo… just love her so much of her every moment, expression and lame joke…. Think I am going to have a lot of fun living with her for the rest of my life. ^_^ After supper went to NUH to visit Jun’s dad for a short while… really was short while only as it was going to be 12mn soon.



20th FEB 2009

I finally told Siti my decision... Amazingly … I actually told her the truth why I want to tender. She said she foresee this coming actually ever since that incident happened. Frankly speaking… if you ask me whether I will miss this company… my answer will be yes. I did make a few good buddies here. But like what the old timer said “when it’s time to go, it’s time to go”

One thing funny about hr is that even if u wants to quit... got timing 1... Can only go resign at 12.30pm. Funny… hope it’s not due to feng shui stuff… lolx

Anyway… hope the next job can really be a better job… hopes really can benefit and learn from it. Hope 2009 will be smooth sailing… everything will be fine so next year I can plan something big~ ^_^

Monday, February 16, 2009

Month of Feb... AHHH!!!!!! HAI~~~ WAH!!!!!!

Month of Feb… what a month I will say… Friday 13th was just few days back… but I will remember it for a long long time… never have I been a bam dang person. But last Friday just happened to be 1 of the suay day.

Met with an accident with a prime mover hitting me from behind. Car skied … and guess what… the driver actually stepped on the accelerator and bang hit my right side also… luckily I was negotiating a right turn at green arrow. Plus I was keeping track of my petrol these few days... so the speed was quite slow for me when it happened... if not the car might have over turn lo… best thing was that the driver still accused it was my fault. And tried to frighten me with the entire claim he can claim but he “being so nice” will only want $40 dollars for his head light wiring… and said he got a eye witness saying I cut into his lane… but he don’t know who he was dealing with… I, Mr. bad boy once won’t be taken a back by all these bull shit… so I told him… go ahead and file insurance… he was taken aback and said I may not get the claim and will lose more… but I insisted on it and wanted his particular… guess what… he.. Rejected … he raised his voice saying… “Just take the plate no. and report... no need particular” of course I refused... he climbed back to his prime mover and wanted to go off… I stopped him from doing so… asked again for his particular and he refused again… so I have no choice but to take out my hp and snapped a photo of him. Realizing what I am doing… he became aggressive and got down the P.M trying to snapped my hand phone from me saying I have no right to do so and he will sue me and call police… realizing the threat.. I told him “ok then... let’s call the police” and I dialed … on seeing what I am doing... he snatched my phone from me… but of course... being much stronger and younger than him.. I easily snatched it back… the half bald driver then grabbed on my collar and threaten that he will punch me... I managed to struggle off his grab and told him to back off… as I was engaged to 999. This is what the conversation between me and the police goes

Me: “hello... is this police... I am now a benoi road and met with and accident with a prime mover… I trying to exchanged particular with the driver but he refused and turned aggressive after anew attempts of getting his particular but fail… so I have no choice but to take his photo as he trying to leave the scene”

Police: why don’t you let me talk to the driver?

Me: he ignoring me and refused to hear anything I said

Police: nvm you just try

Me: uncle ah... the police want to talk to you

Driver: ignore and closed his door

Me: he’s still ignoring

Police: why not you del his pic then try ask him for his particular

Me: I can’t... what if he drives away...

Driver: start engine*

Me: he going to drive away

Police: nvm... record his plate. Then make a police report.

Me: …

Moved his vehicle toward me thinking I will siam... But I didn’t so he brake and reverse and drove off... luckily I was in time to jot down his company no. and company name.

I called the no. after awhile… the man in the phone whom claims to be the boss and address himself as Mr. Leong said his driver didn’t mean to drive off but because he was late for work... and he has been late a few times...

Anyway... we concluded that we will file insurance and the rest of the story was a whole day of traveling from places to places to settle the car issue with my shoulder aching and later on realized red mark over the area where the driver grabbed me… I didn’t state that in my police report as all I want is to claim the insurance… I believe the uncle was just in the mid of panic when he grabbed me. Anyway... some of my friends told me I should have reported his road bully act… but nvm… give him a chance ba… see his age I already ½ soften my heart.



So of course on Thursday which was the 14th of Feb. Valentine Day?

Drove Vios (loan from workshop) to pick sweet up... rushed to lot 1 collect the flower and rushed down to pick her up. Hidden the gift that I wanted to give her in the compartment and the flower in the rear passenger seat… up on seeing me… she passed me the cake she made or rather yogurt. =X … presented her with the flower. Then the wallet... got scolded as we promised not to get gift but can tell she was delighted with the smile on her face.

Went esplane for choc and ate the “cake” she baked. Not easy task wor… we wasted a lot of saliva then managed to get the waitress to agree letting us have the cake... the cake looks good, feel weird and taste good! In case any gals reading my blog… learnt from my girl… guy don’t need expensive stuff or what... just some D.I.Y effort like this will melt our heart…

Anyway… we went took a walk before our dinner and then headed down for a play at Victoria. Don’t like the play... but my moody self make the play worse for sweet.

Luckily we went for supper… but I was too tired on the return journey. So sweet Jun took over the wheel and drove to her house before I continue the journey home… love my sweet… Happy 4th valentine



Sunday 15th Feb.

Met Shawn and Linus for pool competition.

Lost... hai~ don’t want to talk about it… 1st match we shouldn’t have lost... and suay enough to meet the champion in our 2nd game… that the end of our pool story…

Went home. Rest… kW came over at 3plus and help me solved my entire computer problem… my savior. Played winning 11 with him and finally won~ wahahaha.

Nua at home watched nan jiu huo. Slept after talking to sweet JUN


Mon 16th Feb.

Usual day at work. The different… the MTQ called back... offered me the pay and term… quite tempted… but with some question marks... gave me 2-3days day to answer them… will really think through properly later when I reach home.. hope to nego for $100 more... For Pride… hahaha… wish me luck

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Ox Year , Ox personality

Been quite while since I touches here… have been busy lately… Chinese New Year… work… finding jobs…

Not sure what I am going to write below also… but anyway… here goes…

Chinese New Year (OX) fell on the 26th Jan 2009. Had quite a great time meeting relatives . . . ok... More like they visited my house actually as we never go anyone house except uncle’s house.

Watched fann wong’s movie with jun on chu yi night b4 sending both she and her sister home. Then headed down to Yujie’s house

Chu er was great… jun jun came over to bai nian, then we move on to grandma house. Stayed there till 12noon b4 we headed down to sentosa.

Damn crowded lo the place… but took quite some photos =X

Start coughing and sore throat… since day 1 of Chinese new year.. think spread by mum. -.-

On sat (Chu 6), 7eamX gang came over to bai nian and gamble… big win… gave mum $40 as she cook for us… then move on to mj and ss house… still… big win… was very lucky that day…

Anyway… now the main issue… I need to change… not referring to job… referring to myself… my self control… really disappointed with a lot of things that happened yesterday… but most important of all… my self… I promise I will change.. to be a better person and better man… cos there are a lot of stuff waiting ahead for me to accomplish…

JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, December 12, 2008

sorrow... 12-12-2008

Typing something here has never been easy… as it’s either something joyful happened or the opposite … well for this entry… needs not say more… from the way I started already can catch some lead…

Sometimes really wondering what am I doing… to achieve goals in life… by giving this and that believing others will do the same for me… but in the end… it just don’t turn out that way. Trust and belief… totally down the drain… numerous promises… are just words to cover up for lies… pathetic this might sound… but truly what I am going through… Really feel like giving up sometimes… but feeling holding me back… believing everything will be better and turn out fine.

Why can’t life be simple… or just let me be stupid… and not realizing the world still rotating and life is full of huge contrast… I am not a very demanding person I will say… just over protective over stuff I believe in… wrong??? Maybe I should learn to let go then…
There’s always a limit in me… just like boiling kettle filled with hot boiling water trying to rush out and grab some air…

I know life is full of obstacles for us to overcome it… but once awhile I believe I do deserve a break from reality right. Human nature can never change like what many experts said... You and suppress your feeling but you can never change it... just like your normal being… I agree. But I will tell myself… at least I try to suppress the darkness within me… but what have you done for me or the others??

Laughing at myself once again… years after years… this has been repeatedly happening over and over again… and I really a fool not to see it… or am I just foolish enough to believe a leopard can change its spots…

Confusion… disappointment… don’t think I will ever understand this theory… aren’t there things worth one to change. Or human are creature that will just behave and go ahead to do things as they like… scary will be the word I use to describe this behaving… but what to do…?? There’s nothing I can do… I did what I can and I tell myself I owe no one nothing.

Just have to carry on.. maybe 1 fine day I will find enough courage to dump this pathetic life I having behind

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Money not enough 07-12-2008

sunday night.. and i am actually at work.. so sad... waiting for time to pass actually cos meeting friends later..

Recently really understands the meaning of $. the impotant of $. Bills, Loans.. petrol.. unforeseek situation... all need money. going to be broke lo especially now recession taking place.. and dad asked me to treat all the relative makan... -.- x2.

Quite envy of dad's earning... when can i be like him... i hope i wish and i want.

Good News too.. Jun has been very nice and sweet. Just can't stop loving him although her attitude need to change abit little bit more... same goes for me.

Good news no. 2. some how things getting alittle better for me toward her family... hope is not just my own one sided thinking... will jia you regarding this.

Good news no.3 mum buying a excerise machine for me and sis... SAVE $$ ^_^

good news no.4 I am just so gald mum dad grandma sis jun are always around... love all of them so much and always...

Last but not least... money not enough..so most properly need to go neighbourhood country to "SHOP".. lolx.. kk.. lame... but maybe driving in to malaysia to expolre later... getting excited.. key word.. malaysia... not johor.. EXCITMENT!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 29, 2008

29th Nov 2008 ( Just not right )

I am back… Took less than a month for me to be back... it’s either good or bad... as simple as that… it’s either I have a lot to say… or something I want to say.. As simple as that…

Things just wasn’t right… at least that’s what I think. Life wasn’t good for me. Not sure how to express it… not going to further explain also… fast moving track… suddenly slowed down… kind of lost even though direction is so clear. This is absolutely bad…

Putting on a smile to hide troubles yet expecting people to understand… something I really wondering what am I thinking… things starting to change in all aspect… definitely not a good sign..

Fickle mind I am… lost I am... Just can’t find any words to describe my mood now days… when will uncertainty becomes certainty…

The person I thought would understand me the most failed me… the person that I needed support from crushed me…

Deep within me.. I have this fear… toward failure or what I am not sure… but this makes me to create a wall and shield to protect myself from any harmfulness.

What to do what to do… I can only have myself to blame… trusting no 1… not even those I once trusted…