Dun really noe wat to write now.. or maybe juz too much..heart like sinking till the bottom of the sea... hai~ but i will still write something ba...
was woke up by the sms of my hp today.. was suppose to sleep till 3-4pm as we sleep from 9am... but after looked at the sms... totally awake... cos J msged me this "Please come n visit simon one more last time..he can't pull through.singapore general hospital block 4 level 5"
Was shocked by the sms.. called back to her and ask her was she serious..(i noe i am dumb..) as she working so we hang the phone very soon.. and started to call up pple..but find it very troublesome... so forward the sms to everyone...
rushed home and bath and went out as meeting BK and John at around 2pm while yr youJ around 4pm.. but damn my bike cannot start.. dunno why.. so took a cab to SGH... alot pple were there...met bk and John..bk nv change much... we sneaked into the icu with simon`s grandma althought it put a sign say no visitors.. saw simon... l ying there motionless.. real sad.. his grandma talking to him.. and he responsed by moving.. (that`s wat i thought).. but ended up find that is his body dunno why keep jerrking... the look of him really feel the heart ach.. can bear to see much so i move out of the room after awhile... john and bk also after sometimes... we were discussing why this would happen when he still sms us during christmas and i juz on phone with him last pervious friday a week ago..... then pj finally called us after endless trying to reach her.. and she coming down... bk then said he go see his granny for awhile whose o nthe same level.. so john and i went for lunch.. yl wanted to come but work hold him up.. then youW called said he at jp coming over... so was jy also who took a few hrs leave from his camp...then pj arrived and we went in again.. frankly speaking.. every look at him really cause the pain.. remenbered the good old days when we were in pri sch..but now... then went to the cooridoor chat for awhile..updating each other.. around 4pm Yr and YouJ arrived.. and we went in again...awhile more youW, jy ,cecelia & bf(nv expected until she called me say she reached) so they went in with the lead of john.. i stayed outside as went in quite a no. of time and dun really wanan face him this way.. but after around 10min.. the rest of us also went in.... and saw john talking to simon... asking him to be strong and fight against to live.. afew tears came off from my eye althought i tried my best to control it.. it`s nt juz cos of wat.. it`s cos.. someone..once so lively.. so active.. so crappy..fun and out going..a great childhood mates to many.. now lie infront of us motionless.. helpless ..stuggling juz to live... remenbered wat he chatted with me last week when he can't make it for outing cos need to go back hospital for chemical treatment.. and we promised me that he will try his best to make it for the next outing and me too told him will keep him inform.. within my heart..i said " u better get well soon bastard..so many pple care for u.. u can't just leave like this...wat u promise me u better keep ur words.." carefully wiped the tear as if my eye was itchy.. and the room juz filled with silent.. wat`s more can be said.. nothing at all... all our heart juz wan him to recover.. it`s not his time yet... went out from the room and went down for a drink..youJ and bk weent off 1st as they have something on.. youJ said to me "really alot of us turn up today..but not the right occasion.." which i agreed.. we wan gathering ..but not something like this.. told him will organise 1 and get all togather.. but definetely for something good.. shook his hand and pat a good bye..at 1st all dunno wat to say at the food court and asked me to start a topic.. me too dunno wat to say.. heng yr asked about bday stuffs and got everyone to participate in the conversation.. and lighten up the mood abit... but after sometimes.. we decided to went up the icu again b4 we leave... so went up.. jy went in 1st as too many pple.. and waved us goodbye.
Then we went in too.. simon`s mum were beside him chating buddist prayer... the back view of her really touches me... a mum that wun give up and filled with hope.. when the no. of the Blood P increase.. she pointed at the no. too us... and i started to chant and pray in my heart too.. and john hold on to simon`s hand.. we stayed in the room for 20min b4 simon`s bro and sis came in and i decided to let them take over and asked everyone go...
so waved goodbye to cecelia and her bf and the rest of us sat pj car and went home... tru the juroney.. juz to sound abit lively but guess easily being expose.. bt well.. who could..wanted to go loryang.. but changed my min and pray to the buddha statue in my house...
slacking now and writing.. thinking alot.. was suppose to be going out with one of my sec sch xp(sista) later ba..since she asked me wanan come out.. so ask her company me to ecp.. for the 1st time she agree without much ... haha.. thanx Sista.. but changed my mind after a short while.. no mood to anywhere i guess
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